I would like to introduce myself. My name is Heather and I used to be Homeless. I am not currently Homeless but I am in need not only for me but for my Son. Here is my Story and my Needs.
I have been a Victim of many Violent Crimes in my short 35 years of life. I have experienced many things that would make even Lucifer cry. If you can imagine it I have been through it. I have been a Victim of Child Abuse, Domestic Violence, and Molested as a Child 2 times, Nearly Kidnapped as an 11 Year old child by a man with a hunting knife (Thank the Lord I escaped before he got me in his car) raped twice, Death of my Daughter in 1995. I was Kidnapped and held in the woods for 7 days in December of 2005 not knowing if I was going to make it out alive. On the 7th day I asked the Lord to give me the Strength and the intelligence to get away from him. I did just that. I told him I was a Diabetic and my insulin was low and I needed to eat or I would drop dead and then he would have a serious problem MURDER. So he took me out of the woods to Wal-Mart and I ran to the closest and Biggest Security Guard I saw. I also tried to commit Suicide 13 times unsuccessfully. Obviously or I would not be here today to talk to you. The last time I tried to commit Suicide I actually died and was clinically dead for 8 minutes with no oxygen to my brain. I laid in a Coma for 9 days on Life Support and they did not know if I was going to pull through or not. When I woke up I remember saying thank God I am alive. Yet through all of this I never turned to Drugs or Alcohol to drown my pain.
The reason I tried to kill myself was because I was in so much emotional pain I pretty much could not take care of myself.As I did not have any Friend or Family Support at that time, nor do I now. My Mom is Bi-Polar and does not take her meds and my Dad has never been threre for me either except to beat me and treat me as a Slave when i was a child. From the age of Six this was my Daily Routine. I got up at 2 A.M. and did a Paper Route with my Dad 7 days a week. Came home took a shower went to school. Came home from School and Cleaned out the Horses Stalls fed the 40 animals we had then I went to the vegetable garden picked vegetables for dinner. Came in cleaned the house did my homework, Then we ran an afternoon paper route from 5 pm until 8 pm ate dinner, Cleaned the dishes and the whole Kitchen and you did not just wipe off the counter you had to wipe everything that was on the counters and under neath them. If 1 dirty dish was found I had to wash every dish in the cabinets even ones that had not been used for months. After that I had to give my dad Back Rubs for like an hour every night because he had a bad back. Then i took a shower went to bed by 10 P.M. and got up at 2 A.M. and did it all over again. I did this until I was 15 and purposely got pregnant so I could move out and was no longer treated as a punching bag or a slave. By the time I was 33 I had been Victimized several times by several people as described above. After I attempted to commit Sucide the last time and laid in a Coma for 9 days and woke up and nobody not even my Parents had came to see me even though they were aware that I could die. It was then that I realized that the Lord has me on this Earth for a reason. He needed an Angel on Earth to share her story and to help others.
That is why I do what I do I currently have an online Community Advocacy Group that I run from my Computer at home. If a Family is in need i try to find the Local Resources to help them either through my Members or through agencies. Sometimes I can find the help sometimes I can't but I try my hardest. I currently am suffering from Systemic Lupus, Fibromyalgia, High Blood Pressure, Severe Migraines and a Meningioma on my brain. The Steroids they give me have caused me to go from 180 pounds to 300 pounds in 2 ½ years. I am in pain every day of my life, but some how I muster up the strength to do it one more day.
I am also raising a 12 Year old Child (My Natural Child) that suffers from ADHD, Manic Depressive Bi-Polar Disorder, Adolescent Scitzophrenia, and Intermittant Rage Disorder. He also has a Kidney Disfunction, Asthma and Stress Enduced Seizures as well as a Medium case of Agoraphobia. I must admit I suffer from that as well.
I come to you now and I feel quite embarrassed to ask for help as i have always worked my whole life and have never needed any help from anyone. I was always the one to help those in need. I can not work between my Medical Problems and needing to be here for him. I am the only one that can handle all of his medical needs. I own a small Yard Sale/Flea Market/Omline Sales Business. It is enough to barely pay the bills but there is never enough for any extras.
I will not be able to afford a Christmas for my son for the First time of being a Parent in 19 years (I have 2 other Grown Children) I have always been able to get him Christmas. I am also in need of help to help Publish my book on my life that the Lord has laid upon me to write. It is going to cost nearly $1,500 to Publish it. I am to spread the word of the Horrors I have encountered and how he helped me to overcome them. With the proceeds of the book i have been directed to open a Transitional Shelter for Women, Children and Men Obviously I need 2 Locations as I can not put Men with Women and Children especially if they are Rape or Domestic Violence Victims. This is going to be a place they can stay up to 6 months and help them find a job and the money they need to rent a place to live and get on their feet. The shelters they have now kick you out in 30 days. No one can get their life back on track in just 30 days. I also need to purchase some sort of Hot Tub for Water Therapy to help reduce the Chronic Pain with my Lupus and Fibromyalgia. I found a Portable one at Big Lots for $200. So if you are moved by my story and you can help in anyway I would appreciate it. I would much Rather My Son's Christmas be granted more than my needs. I am an adult and I can handle waiting for my needs to be met. But I would like to give my son a Nice Christmas he goes through so much pain and with the Voices they tell him he is a Bad boy and not worthy of living and he trys to choke himself to kill himself. He has been Baker Acted 10 times this year alone. I would like to get him some games and video games etc maybe a bike and some decent clothes so he will have something to keep his mind clear and get some Self Esteem back into his heart and life. Please Help in anyway you can. If everybody that reads this can donate $1, $5, !0, or even $20 it can add up to make a difference in someone's life. Please Help. I lay this on you the readers and on the Lord. Please know that the story I have told here today is true and not some scam to try to get someone to feel sorry for me to just get money. I am the real deal.
God Bless You all Heather
